Aug 14th, 2007

I hate to think of my parents getting old; it doesn't seem right. I don't feel like an adult, so why do they have to get older? ...It reminds me of how one day my parents will be gone from this Earth. That really scares the hell out of me. I LOVE my parents so much and I can not imagine life with out them. I think as I get older I realize the days are getting shorter with them. I am not saying they are going to die anytime soon. I guess I am just trying to prepare myself for the inevitable. My mother will be 5* next year and my dad will be 5* this year. WOW! It seems like no time, that we all just keep getting older and older.......

I don’t know I guess I have been thinking about that a lot. I had a dream about a month ago that my mom died and it has really put this in the front of my mind. I suppose there is nothing I can do but just let them know I love them and appreciate them.

Does anyone else think about this or am I just some morbid weirdo?

My dad finds anything to strenuous a bit much..... ,my mum admitted what I already suspected that she has real memory problems, she constantly forgets things and repeats herself.....

Y do I have 2 Go away from them @ dis stage again??? Y God and the Society have created such $%^^^^%%% customs that u have 2 F**** go away 2 work or 2 build up ur family...bah....WAT a Joke...Family??????? what family?????? Only 2 people makes a god damn family????????? What about our parents????? Who will takecare of them..???

I will die....................I cant digest dis fact....Me have completely wasted my disgusting Time on idiots n bekar people who never even cared a pinch for me...showed trantrums on my parents...If ever I had I fight in school I used 2 come back home n show my mood swings on my mom.....Y she had 2 tolerate all dis??? Who will beat me up If i do somethin wrong years after?????? Who will scold me like my dad???

I just Wish 2 have a Very less Life-SPan....n I will make that happen....and b4 this I will always give my 100% tryin 2 stay atleast very near 2 my parents verever I stay.........

was seein an Old album 2day.....my parents ver so young in dos photos...I was so secured...So safe...2 people who love me n Loved me without any expectations..........

cant Type nemore.....I feel weak inside....I feel.......

gudnite.

PS: The windows of my next-door neighbour aunty who is nomore.....was closed 2day.....and may be it wont open Often as it used 2 be.........I need the mithayi man...Y all dis is happenin people...Y??

PSS:

I didnt mention my parents age coz i didnt feel like..thatz all.