August 8, 2007.

I wanted to write this since many days,But was ignorin d thought , especially considering the fact that I had already gone through the phases described below and would have to relive them in order to map out my post completely......few days back I met wid a Long lost school frd Nihar...accidentaly in a grocery shop...I had mixed emotions inside me n a whrillpool of memories were flashin in front of my eyes...I had this pain n a weird feelin in my heart-soul n Mind.....she was about 2 raise her hand 2 convey a hello....but i walked away....Its not that i generally behave like dis....But within a min..I was forced 2 feel the same Insult...pain..agony...tension...and a bruised Ego of mine which she had created in my life 7 n a half years back may be..precisely..!

There are many scenarios we wish not to happen , Even I had never imagined that the incident wud change my life.... which changed my character in a lot of ways, and left a very deep impact on my psyche....der r many such instances which has helped me evolve n be more strong but lets not get into dos now...n stick 2 d topic.

The day was bad that day.....When she told me that she had never considered me as her friend or worth being her friend as always just had a sympathy coz i was weak in academics n she was toppin in the class.... I had cried a lot that day...as if my heart was weepin..

"The flash back.."

She was one of my bestest frds in school, we used 2 share everythin startin from our lunches to just anythin which 2 school gals wud get involved in discussin! She had taken a place which 2 some extent was near 2 what sonila was havin in my heart...I was a bit weak in studies as compared 2 her...durin my school days i was never a bright student n hence she always used to help me with my studies too...She was more clever n smarter than me during those days....I was always by her side every time she needed me..we had few other close frds too like anu...Anu was a better student than me even so Anu and Nihar always used 2 be a bit more agressive when the issuse of exams, marks or anythin as such arised...anu somehow slowly made me feel that m in no way in their group n was der coz of Nihar....coz she wanted me 2 be der...Still I always ignored such instances which slowly was hurtin my ego silently.....I was Not what I am 2day then...i was very differnt..was a more friendly, naive, and actually was what one shudnt have been in this cruel world of so-called frds who betray u like never b4...

Slowly der was a huge gap between us dunno 4 what n why....her calls reduced n she started behavin as if she was some Queen n she didnt bother about what the ppl below her in anyway were n Felt....she had vene started givin sarcastical comments on d slightest provocation...

The first day of 10th Board came....We all met in the center...she was standin with Anu and didnt even bother 2 look at me 1s even...wereas I was almost about 2 run near her by seein her after 2 months of study-leave...She walked away....

i had few other classmates who were with me like Simi...who always used 2 tell me that i unnessarily love people who dont care 4 me...may be she was right....or may be i was immature that i cudnt understand at that time...

During the entire exams schedule each day...we meet..she didnt talk 2 me..just waved a hello from a distance..as if "If i go near her she will 4get what she had read" hehehhehe.....Some people I tell U are real &%$%&^...neway...we were in the same class were we had our seats...:)

My pyshe had already started changin may be durin that phase itself....Exams Got over...results were Out...I had safely secured a 76% thou she had some 84% and anu some 82 or so....

Last I had seen her when i had been 2 get my result...I asked her Why she had behaved in such a way durin the exams when i needed her the most...???? we had a heated argument n all she said was " blah blah.." [written above already..] Now that i had got d desired mark away above what was expected from me she was happy....[ Wow.., as if i needed her certificate to feel happy..]. I walked away.......

Since then due to God's Grace i had such good frds in my life like Leena..riyanka n all..That der was No lookin back since then....I got double amount of Love, care n everythin which i had lost der...The same trust came back in twice...! I understood five fingers r not same...n Not people even.......!! My nature...personality n behaviour changed magnificently...n for the BEST...!!

I Thank Nihar-anu...for making me be the person m now..and thanx that they went away from my life...The School Life had ended and with it a Complete Phase....!!



Do you then continue being in a farce of a friendship, knowing that everything you’ve shared together is now a heap of yesterday’s memories, tainted with her betrayal?

Thatz Why...I didnt wish her when i saw her few days back.........Though I still had the same happiness in my heart...by seein her after so many years...wish i wud have run n hugged her...!

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Sonila was with me till class 5th..aftr that as far as school n colleges r concerned we never read togethr, So she was der all along n is still der....so i didnt mention her..again..!

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i meet my next set of frds aftr 10th when i joined college.

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from common frds I was always gettin d news of nihar ofcourse...she cudnt succeed the way she wanted 2...and Anu is not der in her life anymore too...Lolzz Funny..!!!