Dec 18, 2007

Manzil se behtar lagne lage hain Ye raastein ;-)

dec 9th, 2007

Sometimes our loved ones hurt us.

These are some of the big hurts in life that leave us wondering how we will ever heal. But there are little hurts too that can build into mountains of resentment if we don't address them. Hurts such as, angry words exchanged during an argument, a friend neglects your friendship, people take you for granted in the moment of hurt and frustration.

What we can do here...what i have atleast learnt is....

1. Forgive: we need to forgive so that we can move on with life. Forgiving does not mean that we condone dos pplz ' behavior. It does not mean that we allow others to keep hurting us. To forgive means to give up all resentment and the desire to punish the other person. In our heart, it means we've cancelled the dëbt we feel others owe us. Sometimes the only way to know love is to experience what love is not. Whatever the question, challenge or decision, love is always the answer.

The main thing to remember is that it is not you're fault. You did not do anything to make this person hurt you. These are merely signs to help you come to an understanding of how you fell into the trap and ways you can get out of it if you are still in.


If you think that God doesn't hear you Then that, is really a shame Not only does He hear every prayer you say; But He knows you, by your name. It does not matter just where you are When you call upon the Lord.

If someone is a threat to you or harms you always remember that if you forgive them god will prevail and punish them for what they have done to you. ...Pukka se :) aaj nahi tho may be 5-10 years after.....!

dec 8th, 2007

kash meri Zindagi ek kitab hoti aur mein firse aapni zindagi first chapter se jee paati, be able 2 compensate for the loss made by Me by wasting my time and energy on things which matter the least by neglecting my loved 1s...kash ki mein mere maa-baap ke guzre hue Umar aur saadiyan unko louta paati which dey had invested on me.....kash ki mein 23 saal peeche jaa paati.....

thru dec 6th, 2007

Tagged!!

LAST:

1. last beverage- Thump's up
2. last phone call- karan
3. last instant message- Karan
4. last cd played- "mere palak ka tu hai sitara" 4m d movie showbiz!
5. last time you cried- emm..an hour or two ago
6. last text message received - mein marungi tho maar jayegi :-$


HAVE YOU EVER:

1. dated someone twice - No
2. been cheated on - Yup!!
3. kissed someone & regretted it - Nope
4. lost someone special - Yea I lost my dog 2yrs back :(
5. been drunk and threw up - i dnt drink!! Hic ;)
6. Do you have a crush on someone: nope
7. Piercings: yup ear piercing ^-^
8. Tattoos: eeeekss...Nope!!
9. Righty or lefty: Righty

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?

1. Lips or eyes: yrrgh..i think Eyes. :-O
2. Hugs or kisses: None! :SS
3. Shorter or taller: taller *yawn*
4. Romantic or spontaneous: wat the hell ( i m hating this tag now :@)
5. Nice stomach or nice arms: :-)
6. Sensitive or loud: I dont care!!
7. Hook-up or relationship: kia musibat hai!!
8. Trouble maker or hesitant: I want him to be a dead one!!

More 2 come later!!

Bye ^_^

Dec 3rd, 2007

HEIGHT OF COWARDICE: ( THIS IS WHAT I ALWAYS DO) Two persons fighting through emails.

Nov 25th, 2007

M : Listen to your heart, not your hormones! bwhahhahahahhaha!

M: Divine Love always has met and always will meet every human need ?
:-D Bwahahahahaahahahahahahhahahahahahaha!

M: Tera pati bofado hoga kya???

Deepsikha: Wot??? :o

M: Bofado (doping, fagging, boozing) karne wala Kamina :D

Deepsikha: *roll eyes*…. *looks away*

Mili jiss haal bhi eh zindagi......!!!

Mili shikawon bhari chitthi teri achi lagi humko,
Kisi ki aaj tho Bewafaai achi lagi humko!

Yahan ek dusre ke ghar abhi tak log jaate hain'
Tumhare shahar ki eh sadgi achi lagi humko!

Maza aane laga, rehne laga jo intezaar unka,
Mila kuch kaam tho eh zindagi achi lagi humko...!

safar se duniya ke laute Khala mein ghum aaye jab,
To aapne gaon ki eek-eek gali achi lagi humko!

Chhuan tak hum bhula baithe the jab thandi fuharon ki,
Kisi bachhe ki kishti kagzi achi lagi humko..!

Bulaye bhi nahi aur aa baitha tha mahfil mein kisi ki Tu....
feer bhi teri maujudagi achi lagi humko.......!!!

Tujhe ab Alvida kehne ka waqt aaya tho kehte hain......
Mili jiss haal bhi Eh Zindagi achi lagi humko......!!!!!!!!!!

PS:

beautifuly written by some special i knw.....Thought lemme blog d lines down 4 u ppl 2 read it..!!

Grr.

I absolutely hate spam

If there’s one thing that drives me completely insane in the modern world of computing it’s spam. It consumes my time, day after day, and devours the resources of our mail systems. In my own mailbox I get a few hundred spam messages a day, most of which I’ll never even see, let alone read. Thankfully most of these are filtered, but there’s still at least 20+ which I have to manually deal with every morning. I HATE IT. I HATE IT IT IT IT :(

Ever noticed how spam email comes from rather an ecletic selection of email addresses? Has one of those addresses ever been yours? If there’s one type of email even more annoying that spam it’s bounces generated as a result of spam, sometimes thousands of them. You’ve suddenly become an unwilling victim of spam. Your address abused, and maybe even your name tarnished.

Whilst I’m ranting, another thing I can’t stand are those pages of junk links that appear when you try and google for something, particularly if it’s a fairly common term. Thankfully google is trying to deal with that, but it’ll be a neverending battle. %$#$^



What gives spammers the right to do this?


One of these days I’m going to get sick of the battle and just say “screw ‘em all” . :-X :-X



Bloody rascals!

Nov 19th, 2007.

Our convocation is finally over... and I've never been so proud of myself before. It has marked the end of my university days....and With it ended a beautiful phase of my life.......!!!!!

Everythin was so beautiful...So so nice!!!

A Master's degree holder finally Eh ;-) best part of my yesterdays..!! Thankfully my Grads convocation had even made me feel special...Its bcoz even that was spl 2 me...Actually Each n every thing in my life is special 2 me...Thatz d reason Y I enjoy every bit so much...so so so so so mucccccccccccccccchhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!

Ahhhhhhhh!!!!! m so happy....Sad coz its over??? Yea a Bit.....chalta hai par..I have 2 move on...2 a New world...were New ppl..r waiting ;-)

y does al gud things come 2 an End.. :-(

Bye!

Bwahhahahahahahha!!!

D: U started drinkin :-P

K: Yea, yea m a drunkard now..:D

D: Then get lost, I hate loosers like u!

K: :D

D: ????

K: jab wahan aaungi party karte hain :D

D: meri party mein derz no place 4 bitches who drink...be it wat! I ABHORE drinking!

K: Chup :D

D: Kya pee hai vese :D

K: :D

D: I knew It :D

K: aane se khatam karenge bottles Tik??

D: Alrite rascal :D

K : Yes going talli drinking beers and red wines and dancing on "Loose Control" from Rang De Basanti ....!!!!!

D: hahahahah, bitch! Bolna kya pee hai???

K: Thumps Up!!

D: I knew It :D

K: :-P

D: :-P

* We belong 2 d other types of d populi :D thankfully we dnt follow d loosers, who think drinkin n smokin increases smartness or which wud make dem Hyper n fast types :D poor souls....Grow Up

:D....Lifez not all about Live-In relationships, Free Sex, drinking, smoking, etc etc etc....Life is much above den all of It!!! have d Guts 2 Love Truely, Live proudly n be wat Never Change *wink*

*dunno Y i posted dis*..!! *Yawwn*

gudnite :-*

Tue, Nov 13th, 2007

Meri Zindagi Mein WOH MERA THA YEH BATANA AJEEB LAGTA HAI
AB US SE AANKH MILANA AJEEB LAGTA HAI ...

JO ZINDAGI MAI KABHI BHI MERA HO NA PAYA
AB US KA KHWAAB MAI AANA AJEEB LAGTA HAI ...

BARAY KHULOOS SE DAWAT TO US NE BHAJE HAI
PAR US KI MEHFIL MAI JANA AJEEB LAGTA HAI...

THA JIS KA HAATH HAMESHA HAMARAY HAATHOO MAI
AB US SE HAATH MILANA AJEEB LAGTA HAI..


[Got dis as a fwding, sochi yahan likh dun! Nice lines!]

Nov 5th, 2007.

1. MISSION :

The infamous lizard that had been silently running around my room for the past 6months or so . So I made it my personal mission to catch and release this lizard back into the wild .! hahaha! The little stinker ran under every piece of furniture I own. I cornered him like 5 times and he kept sprinting away like a maniac. So finally, a half hour later(I've been chasing him the whole time), I finally corner him again, and get this, he's so tired he doesn't even try to get away. HAHAHAHAHA. I see him breathing so heavy. Poor, stupid lizard. If only he knew that I was trying to help him, maybe he wouldn't be so stupid..:D
I think he's in shock because he keeps sitting there. For all I know he's still sitting there!

Conclusion!

Chasing lizards could easily become a full time occupation. Better to live peacefully with the natives.


2. I fed my Grandfather’s cows raw carrots and can report they have long black, sticky tongues. *Eeeeeeeeeekssss*

Words By Mirza GHALIB ...!!

Jo had tapey so auliya, behad tapey so pir
Jo had,
behad dono tapey, us noon aakhan fakir

[(The one who crosses all boundaries attains the exalted title Auliya, the one who crosses non- boundaries becomes the Pir,The one who crosses both boundaries as well as non- boundaries, becomes a Fakir)]

Banakar fakeeron ka hum bheys ghalib
Tamasha-e-ahl-e-karam dekhtey hain

[Taking on the garb of a fakir, GhalibI watch the goings on of the world with a detached air)]


here comes the One I Love !!

Bus ke dushwar hai har kaam ka aasaN hona
Aadmi ko bhi muyassar nahiN InsaaN hona

:-)

Aeweyi mood kiya so bloggd emm'!!!

M preety exictd about my Convocation which is goin 2 held soon..!! Travel is on d cards i Guess ;-)

oct 28, 2007.

Fact of Life :

Expectin da World to treat U Fairly because u r a Good person.....Is Like

Expectin a Tiger not to attack U becoz u r Vegetarian.....!!!!


;-)

Oct 2007.

Aaj ka date kya hai bhai :-??? I dnt remember
:-//. Leave it!

Aur hw r my dearest Blog readers doing??? :-*
:-* :-*

hugssssssssssssss!!

My life has turned out 2 be mast n Nicer ;-) I believe in God ;-)

yes I do :-).

Will Post somethin Nicer later ;-) This was just a Comeback Post ;-)

Love u all as ever..!!

18th Oct, 2007

Ranbir Kapoor is HOT!!!! I love d entire kapoor Khandan crowd!!! Lovely Kareena kareena Kareena :).!!

All come after Shiny Ahuja!! [My heart stops beatin when i see him on screen] Afterall First Love is always First love ;)

A Prayer.

Prayer

God, I know I need to forgive few ppl whom I had trusted n yes ofcourse loved... I know you have said that unless we forgive our fellow human beings we will not be in a position to receive your forgiveness of us, and how desperately we all need that. Holy Spirit, free me from the bitterness I have held in my heart for so long. I release my death-grip on this person in my life and place them in Your hands. I ask that you would bless this person and help them experience your love the way you have allowed me to experience it. I know you love them as much as you love me. I receive your forgiveness and your love for me, as I extend my love and forgiveness to all bygone persons in my life. I Aspire 2 move 2 a new future a New begining.... – lay it down so I can pick up all that God has for me.

oct 15th, 2007.

... they think that I'm strange... they say that I'm a dreamer... but I don't complain, though I don't have much to call my own. I know a place where I keep the best of things. I'm not gonna wait for my piece of heaven where there's a road, I will have 2 find it Myself....Myself. Myself!!!

Hmmmmm m a bit bored 2day coz I hate waitin :( so sochi lemme type down some philosophy..hehehehe! m waitin 4 Miss Missy..here goes few lines of d small hyper conversation we had had :D

She: Paaka aayegi na?? paaka aayegi na?? * has a habit of repeatin lines*

Me: Shuddup *irritated* how many times I wil tell u a Yes...Bye.

She: missed call marna , fir mein tujhe marungi, warna sms..sharp at 9 sharp @ 9...Sharp

Me: Plzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz *I cudnt control my laughter*

She: *giggles*

Me: ok bye have 2 work abhi rakh tu tele-phoune :-p

She: aajana haan..aajana.. oops Sorry *again giggles*

Me: hmmmm.

N now m waitin n she has not turned up yet...Huh. My frds I tell u r strange ppl.

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Even I have a habit of repeatin lines in a conversation :D hehheehe.

Oct 14th 2007.

I had been 2 my grandmaa's house 2day, lemme blog few lines of our conversation here........dunno Y m bloggin dis..coz neither of u r goin 2 make out d head or tail of our conversation...Nor m gonna tell u either.....somethings cant b told.

NOTE:

We ver havin dis conversation in our mother tongue! lemme type it down in english....I still dont knw Y d hell m I typin.......*Insane*.

Granny: U came.....

Me: Yes...felt like..

Granny: want malpua wid kheer? *datz is always made [read : Not purchased] whenever I visit my nani's house..Infact i love all wat she cooks!*

me: yup

Granny : *Tearful eyes*

Me: *Hugs*

Silence.......

Me: U have 2 be strong grandmaa....very strong..

Granny : dnt u remember every bit of days spent here???

Me: yes...how u used 2 brush my teeth , d old wash-basin, d same corridor, d same peepal tree, the smell....dos ver some days...*laughed even if my eyes ver full....*

Granny : I wanted my GrandJamayi 2 see ver u had spent most of ur childhood days atleast....he shud have known how naughty u ver..how u had broken d gud'ol window glass and ver ur first Pet used 2 stay....

Me: *smiles*...

Granny : I will miss....

Me: Me 2...we all will....

Granny: *silence....*

Me: *Silence*....

Tears of silence r most loud...!!!!! I Hate Loud Silence..!

Bye.

13th oct 2007.

Mila kya dost teri dosti se,

Huye mahroom duniya ki khushi se..

chaman aisa jalaya bijliyon ne,

Saham jaate hain ab hum roshni se...!!

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Hume jissne mitaya wo kahan hai,

yehi tho puchte hain hum har kisise..

Jinhe aapna samjhte the abhi tak,

Nazar aaye hume wo ajnabi se...!!!

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wafayon par duaayen de rahe hain,

Banawat se nahi aapni khushi se...

Unhe hum bhool kar bhi jee tho lenge

Magar ye dekhna kis bebasi se...!!!

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Kabhi tho ye haqeeqat jaan loge,

tumhe chaha tha humne kis sadgi se...

bhagwan na kare kabhi aesa din aaye,

Ki tum bhi pachhtaoge meri kaami se...!!

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[Not mine].

L-O-V-E...!!!! :)

I am going to take a few moments to ramble on about my views and thoughts on the subject of love! :D :D

Now when it comes to love, I am probably one of the most educated

:-D on the subject, yet when I am in the same situation myself, I don't even know my right from left. How many of you feel the same WAY? You can tell everyone else how they need to fix their loves and it works, and you can take breaking relationships and fix them up in just a few moments, yet it seems like you have been looking for love your whole entire life and still haven't made it anywhere! So....am I right or wrong?

I'll be the first to say that I 100% really, honestly believe in true love. I am VERY old -fashiond and I "by some miracle despite the heartaches and dissapointments in the love department" still believe in the kind of love nowadays only seen in fairy tales and movies.

;-) It seems crazy, because the way that the world is today, it seems like people only fall in love to fail. 85% of all relationships end up in a break up! I find it really Funny when few of my frds come 2 me wid der break up problems.... My first question 2 them as always been Like " U Sachi loved him/her :-D

:-D or u just wanted a kiss :D errrr ... ask d question 2 urself first....n then shed these idiotic tears....I mean How Can u even afford to stay without d person if u really loved him/her??? and If d break-up was from his/her side then why on earth do u shed dos tears???? They never loved u atall......be happy dat ur heart was true n move on :)" People tend to take these four letters L O V E and use them like it's just "another" word. I have a famous saying."Love can Move mountains " Then why ppl have dos silly break ups??? Yet people still take this one for granted. Back in the older days love was a word used to get to someone's heart....and it seems now it's used to get into someone's pants. Sad....very sad...but VERY true. Maybe I am a FOOL who feels this way about love, but you know...I'm not changing for anyone. I mean eventually one day someone will appreciate the way I view love and the way I give my entire heart away for LOVE instead of for a few nights of fun. I believe that love is the greatest thing in the world. Once you find it...and you see how it feels...you never wanna lose it. I honestly believe that God has a plan for everyone and that there is that special someone out there for them, it's just a matter of time and effort to find them. Love is not an easy thing....if it were easy, what would be the satisfaction of it? You have to work at love and you have to be faithful and honest. When you 100% love someone there is NOTHING in this entire world that can come between you and the person you love.

I see lots of people splinting up these days because they "just need to find themselves" and they tell the other that they love them, but they just need some time away...HAHA...BULL..:D .if you love someone you want to spend every moment possible with that person right there in your arms beside you, just holding them as tight as you possibly can, like you are never gonna let them go.

Remember - There are no "breaks" in love....it's either all or nothing.

Now enough of my rambling...I just want to see how many honestly and truely still believes in TRUE Love....I am a True Lover...n am sure I will Find 1 someday...!!! :)

Bye bye.

My Fav Jodi in jAb We mEt :D

Industrialist Aditya (Shahid Kapur) feels defeated as the girl he loves is getting married. He drifts out of the gathering, and finds himself on a train, speeding away into the night. A young girl Geeta (Kareena Kapoor) ,a talkative Sikh girl from Bhatinda

:-D (in Punjab) , who is leaving Mumbai to elope with her boyfriend, meets Aditya. She irritates him to the point of leaving the train

:-D .They are stranded on a desolate station, without luggage or money. They reach Ambala, her house, through highs and lows, only to be mistaken as lovers by the family. Geeta then plans to run away to Manali to meet the man of her dreams. To realize later that her boyfriend has changed to the core and never really Loved her atall....... :( Her family traces her back. It is up to her to tell her family the truth.Only that she realizes that the misconception [ i.e believed by the family that Shahid is her Bf
;-)] was the truth.. And they are meant to be together, always. *Smiles*

Wow :D

Some sweet dialouges from d movie which I like :D

Shahid:*disgusted* : Tum hamesha aesi bakwaas karti ho ya aaj koi special occasion hai :D.

Shahid : *disgusted* : tum aapne kaam se kaam nahi rakh sakti :D

Shahid: * disgusted* : tumhe uttake museum mein rakhna chahiye ticket lagni chahiye tumko dekhne ki :D

M waitin 2 watch dis..!! :D

oct 6th, 2007.

This is one of the hardest thing to do...and I could never do it properly.To know everything you want is right there infront of you and not being able to reach out and have them. And yet not being able to get over it and move on. You don't stop wishing you could have them, you don't stop wishing and praying, you know there is no hope and still you try to hold on to that weak string of hope... Has it ever happened to you?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p2RC3MEj4Xg

A Song very close to my Heart..!!

Blah!

It’s been rather hectic these days. Days just zoom past one after another, I even lost count of the days. Haven’t had enough sleep, because had too many Work Exams Work exams Work Exams Exams Exams Exams Exams *Booooooooooohooooooooooooooooooooo* I feel demented and Insane *sign* I feel I will get more demented :D :D :D wow!!! now datz gonna be some Fun ;) I miss having time for myself. Time just to sit down and breath, and time to just relax and do nothing. Or even time just to sit down and (have more energy and enthusiasm to) blog (and blog-hop.) :D :D I believe in keepin My committments hence I make it a point to blog even though it Slogs d hell outta me * yawwwwwwwwwwwwwn*

used to take the time to read lengthy posts and enjoying them, but nowadays I find myself skipping everything wordy! Hahaha! Now you can skip my lengthy post. *Wink* Have so much to blog about on these few days of madness that I’ve been having, actually.

Each Night everyday ...Everyone’s asleep... Everything’s so quiet... Still. There’s only the hum of the computer and the sound of me typing. :D :D :D heheheheehehheheheh.....Everything is absolutely still. Insomnia has taken over me again.:( I should be in bed, but I’m not. I’m not tired, I’m still energetic and awake and thatz how my night ends...*Ill*....and m sure this is gonna be my timetable for many years to come now......

have an exam on sat and sunday.

have to meet professors on monday.

Tuesday again.

Wednusday m dead *remembered somethin while typing dis now..* i.e on wed i have a deadline to fillup a form...*sick*

ANd So on...m feeling extremely lazy to type anymore *yawn*

As I am deprived of sleep , an afternoon nap will help ...though I hate It. SO leeme take a nap for 30mins *yea hate sleeping more than dat* and then again get back to work....!!

PS:

Wud post again On monday sweethearts....m just so packed up now for d exam..Pl. Pray.!!

Love U all Very much! :-*

Bye.

Happy Birthday Bappu :-* [A letter 2 U!]

To Bappu,

A very Happy Birthday Mohandas Karamchand Gandhi :D ? Kesa chal raha hai sab heaven mein??? :) Miss u re bappu......Yahan par des days u will rarely find good people ya, all r ugly from their Hearts....Very Very ugly. Bloody liers r becoming CEO's of MNCs, Blackmoney is making the rich richer and the poor poorer, People have become very Insensitive and dnt posses a Pinch of compassion in then anymore....:( rather ridicule the sensitive and compassionate people by terming them as "WEAK"......people who believe in God these days r "WEAK" .....people who dnt rape, dnt marry twice, thrice , dnt eve-tease r taken to be Gays..."WEAK GAYS"..."Namard"......Girls who dnt smooch on the roads r taken to be "Behengies"........Drugs addicts and boozers r getting into big institutes just because they r gud @ academics....and even the Nicest of human being is forced to roam around asking for money from people...coz he never got into a good college or has a decent Job...World is running towards prosperity and is booming with Money and Infrastructure and wat not....But the Pity is..It is no longer based on ethics and morals...Only the "WEAK" follow dis Craps 2day..and Suffer isolation thruout.....world has become the worst gandhiji...u shud have been alive to see all this atleast. I Miss u bappu......I truely deeply Miss U.....!!!! Happy wala birthday again...!! vande mataram..!

From,
An Indian.


To all Who r making India worst by spoling its culture and values for which India is INDIA was INDIA for all those Jerks and fuckers :

It's so sad and pity that we need a certain day in a year to remember such great persons and the legacy thay have left behind.How many of us respect his ideals not only by mouth but also by actions? tell me Fuckers???? How many??????

Well we have all stooped so low as to remember Gandhiji the person and not his principles and ideals. The supposed descendants of Gandhiji(aka **** party) is now a rotten organization of power hungry and manipulative politicians. I myself don't have the right to say any of this, because I, like almost every other Indian too have disowned Gandhiji's ideologies somever down d line.....Coz dis cunning and **** world forces u to change....u cant act naive and still WIN today....ur Ego and self-respect will be gang raped by people who wud have a sadistic pleasure letting u down.....Hence Yes even I have changed....changed for myself..changed to protect myself....changed to follow "Bhagat singh..." Yea Like bhagat singh..... Why do we celebrate Gandhijayanthi ? Gandhiji would rather have given some poor a meal rather than have shows organized in his memory. I think Gandhiji is indebted to Godse more than any other Indian, for not letting him see this state.....hahahahhahahahha.


Ps:

Sorry Bappu I used some bad words in my blog...But m a True Indian...m Sure even it wud have been tough for u to tolerate the so-called "India Shinning" F*** Dogma.

PSS:

How many of U read dis blog completely???? All dos who read it....I Salute U.

Oh My God???!!!!!!???? :|

:-/ m Not dead m Not dead m Not dead :-/ :/ :/ :

Now Stop reading this blog and bahar nikalo mujhe wahan se pl :( I feel suffocated :-0 :-l

not me!!the teddy killed him! ;-x

not me!!the teddy killed him! ;-x

Sept 29th, 2007.

Wish I could wax lyrical about the way my room looks in the afternoon when it rains and I switch off the lights, draw the curtains and let the delicious earthy , murky greyness and scent seep in..the cool ,calmness ..the stolidity of it, the strains of the music in the background and the whitish softness of the sheets when I lie in bed just like that!

Wish I could describe in detail how I feel when i do discover a song I can fall in love with..or the warm satisfaction of repeated playings after that.. :D :D


Wish I could write well enough to describe the warmth of my hands clasped around a coffee cup on a cold morning..Its like putting iodex or smelling vicks..umm if u care for these things :-s
:S :S :S :S I am addicted to coffee. I don’t know when, and at what point in my life did I develop this craving but it has firmly embedded itself in the innermost recesses of my consciousness :( :( :( :(

Wish I cud tell u how it feels to see a dim light in a dark dark room :-S :-S U Knw wat....I cannot stay in a room which is pitch dark. I need some kinda light, however dim. I need some kinda security, however fleeting. Darkness makes me insecure and helpless, and in the paranoia I cling to the diffused sense of security provided by the night light.

Wish I could write well enough about The smell my most favourite day starting wid , that of the dusty ground getting wet as it starts to rain after a dry spell. I think that’s one of the most magical aromas, and I could sit for hours deep breathing in the refreshing scent :D :D :D

I wish I wish I wish I wish * yawnnn*

Will post it sum otherday...

*headache* :(

Nostalgia....!!!

Tere Khayalon se Nikalne ka Koi irada nahi hai....
Lekin tujhe bhool jane ke siwa Koi chaara nahi hai.....!

Is Jahan main har koi apna sa lagta hai...
Nahi hai tho faqat ek tu hamara nahi hai.......!

Mere Liye Tum bhi Udaas na rehne lago kahin.....
Ye mohabbat ko humari gawara nahi hai.......!!

Manzil Hum se door hi rahi humesha ae dost....
Shayad is samandar ka oi Kinara nahi hai.......!!!!

Har Morh par tujhe hi yaad kara maeine....
Aur tu kehta hai ke Pukara nahi hai......,!!!!

Aa kar ek baar mil le humse Tu.....
Ki Phir tere Shahar se Guzarne ka Iraada nahi hai.....!!!!

Tere Hi Intezaar mein kat Jaayegi shayad ye Umar saari......
Ki tere badh kisi Ko chaaha nahi hai................!!!!!




Cheers!

sept 27, 2007.

HaramKhor.

:D

Am not in favour of another partition of India, or anything of that sort. Nor m in favour of Indian racism” But Still let me confess with a Brave heart that : I HATE SOUTH INDIANS and anything Southy
:-// eeewwwwwwwww :( m just helpless and slave to my own foolishness...But somethins never change :-D Nor my perception about southies ever will :-D :-D Aaiyoooo m so blunt in my talks eh???? :-D The Non-southy n -South divide is not that easy to bridge. Though there are many similarities amongst Indians hailing from different directions on the map, these are all overlooked in the sight of the slightest difference. And it is the differences that end up being highlighted...People may take me to be "the person who created this blog is a racist bugger with an insane personality :( " I accept I am somever may be and even i Understand that " this discrimination ends, and fools of india :-D realize that unity is our power." But it has all been due to my personal experiences which I always had due to some southies n d crowd...m not against d entire southy populi...But somehow I dnt like der Aamaa, aaiyo, saaare, endedu or watever accent nor der Over-smart guys or gals...rather gals esp. pretending to be this I-Am-So-Innocent-Attitude *utter disgust* nor der idlli-sambar-dosa * Help*.......yea VAADA :-D....
or The most common suffix here is ‘a’, e.g. straight - straighta 2 cup tea - 2 cupa tea :) ...

PS:

It’s not racist, just sense of humor ;).

PSS:

God save My southy students the day I become a Professor :-D :-D

PSSS:

No Offence Intended.

Non- CRAP!!!

Ek shaqs raaste mein Kahin chut gaya tha....
Uss hadhse ke badh dil tut gaya thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa :-D

Intezaar Nahi usske ab lautke aane ka
Ki ab mujhe Pyaar hai kisi aur anjaan ajnabee se :-D
Jo shayad hamesha se mera hi thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa :-D

Bekar din-waqt guzara ek shaqs pe Jissko meri ek katar bhi fikar na thi
Aaj ehsaas Hua wo Pyaar nahi....awwarapan thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa :-D

na kabhi ussne chua mujhe Na kabhi wo ehsaas jaage
Fir kiu mein din-raat ussi ke sapne bunti thi....
Shayad mere Pyaar Ko Pyaar se bada Pyaar thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa :-D

Jiske khabwon ko meinne neend mein sanjoya
Jiske sapno ko meinne ankhon mein piroya.....
Dillagi kehke wo meri dil tord gaya thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa :-D

Kasoor nahi Majburiyan thi shayad uski,
Ki mere dilne usko saada Maaf kiya thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa :-D

Sache maan se Pyaar karne walon ko...
Milti hain sachi mohabaat ek din
Iska aetbaar mujhe hamesha se thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa :-D

Jaate-Jaate aaj bhi Uss saqh ko dua deti hun
Ki mile usko bhi kabhi mere dil jesa ek aur dil....
Par afsoos shayad mere jese nahi chahega usko aur Koi..
ye daawa mera kal bhi thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa :-D

Bohat hi acha banda tha......
Ek Hi dilse iss awwara dil ko mere bada Pyaar tha...
Ek saqhs raaste mein kahin chut gaya tha........!

Ps: Tragedy of the story :

Usss shaqh ko shayad kisi aur se bada pyar thaaaaaaaaaaaaaa :-D lolzzzzz!!

Pss:

Ye meri story nahi hai :-) ......!!!??? Hmmm :-D

Nahi hai!

Nahi hai!

Nahi Nahi Nahi Nahi Nahi Nahi.

Psss:

Bhoot se zaada I detest [read: dislike Intensely] Love..hence Cant be my story Neva ;)

Thank You Sweethearts!!!

Let me begin with thanking everybody who wrote to me while I was not blogging and encouraged me to come back and blog. Yea for a regular blogger like me even d 3-4days gap was too much :-( I dnt have much strength to type though...*Sign*....

PS:

I have few very very sweet Frds here Amrita and Karan Singh :-) m sure gonna catch up wid u both very soon!!

PSS:

Amrita Thanx for being so-so sweet....
T-a-k-e-c-a-r-e :-D hehehehhehe. Lets catch up sumday on yahoo :).

PSSS:

Guys u watchin the 20-20 world Cup???????? Kaun jeetega :-// ???

Here is a dedication to all my blog visitors and Friends...Thanx a Lot for being so very sweet..!!! :-*

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=020mJgYMAQc

SING ALONGGG!!!!

:-( sept 20, 2007.

I am having a terrible cold and Fever :-( cudnt even sleep properly last nite, slept d entire day today....Feeling more pathetic due to d Over-sleep hangover :( High Fever - Too high fever makes u somewat abnormal...* Like m bloggin Now* fatigue, dizziness, muscle aches, loss of strength, and exhaustion all have attacked me in One Go :( :( .

I feel like Vomiting * eeeeeeeeeeeeeee*

Plz Excuse.

Who..What..When..Where... TAG!!

1.(a) Pick out a scar you have.
Errr..I have a birth mark..Lets Skip It :D

(b)and explain how you got it?
Brother hit me and ran. I charged at him like a bull. Did not notice the doormat and the fact that he dodged. Slipped and hit my forehead smack on the edge of a wall. Blood spurted like in the low budget horror movies :-/// DUMB...Naturally since birth..Huh!!!

.2.What does your phone look like?
MOTOFLIP W220 *Yawnn*

.3. What is on the walls of your bedroom?
One clock, which is ten minutes slow :D , Few portraits of god and a lizrad (now)

4. What is your current desktop picture?
Image of my Feet :D


5. Do you believe in gay marriage?
I don't have anything to do with them. If they like it.. fine! Have a gay anniversary!!

6. What do you want more than anything right now?
To talk about my entire life right from my childhood with someone.

7. What time were you born?
I did not know to see time then :P

8. Are your parents still together?
Yep. And they'll remain that way.

9. Last person who made you cry?
WHo?????? :-///

10. What is you favorite perfume/cologne?
HUGO Woman, charlie perfumes :D my all time Fav.

11. What kind of hair/eye color do you like in the opposite sex?
What comes naturally.

12. What are you listening to?
My fingers hitting the keyboard

13. Do you get scared of the dark?
Yes Yes Yes :-SSS

14. Do you like pain killers?
Do YOU like painkillers??

15. Are you too shy to ask someone out?
Eeeeeeksss...Yes..!!

16. If you could eat anything right now, what would it be?
Wai-wai noodles

17. Who was the last person you made mad?
Mom.

18. Is anyone in love with you?
NO

sept 18, 2007.

Note:

We generally Skip d usual hallllos n Heeellos n Huuuloooss!!

Me: Thou Tune Kya socha???? Decision bol aapna....I cant decide things alone *Yawnnn*

She: A Big No 4m my side...Yaar mein nahi positive remark dungi tere decision pe..

Me: Hmmmm....fir kya karen?? *yawnnn Ywannn*

She: Chod de :-D

Me: Kya * neend udd gayi meri* Nahi yaar.......its not possible...kese karun???

She: Mil mujhe 2 ghante mein...

Me: Hmmmm bahar toofan hai, If u have eyes...dekh.

She: doesnt matter We Both love storms * a wicked Grinn*

Me: :-D

She: Yaar the world is bad...and U be the worst.

Me: Ok-Ok. *Yawnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn* hmm chal tu nikal ab...dnt disgust.

She: Hmmmm.

*Dropped d Phone*

*Yawnnn*.

bye people..!!!!!

Kisses :-*

Deepsikha's TOP TEN ...!!!???!!!

Hi Humans??? Sup???

"10 Things I HATE the Most" ;-)

1. People speaking f**k all english, when they can speak real good hindi..!!!
2. guys going gay!
3. females riding the BAJAJ breed of bikes..!!
4. guys acting smart / girls acting oversmart ..!!!!
5. Loose Character n Low Moral..!!!
6. flickering tubelight !!
7. XYZ..!!! [Ya keep guessin]
8. Waiting..!!!
9. Bitter Food..and BITCHES ;-)!!!!
10. MEN.

"10 Things I Love the MOST" ;-)

1. My parents..!!!
2. water droplets on chilled Thumps Up can !!
3. Make-Up..!!
4. smell of new book..!!
5. MEN [ coz m straight ;-)]
6. kareena kapoor - Shiney AHuja..!!!
7. Sweets...!!!
8. Talking-Talking-Talking..!!!
9. recieving SMS..!!!
10. Music + WorkOuts/Gyming...!!!!

"10 Thing I Wish To happen"

1. Adding 20 years from my life To that of My parents 4 der Longevity...!!!!
2. Bringing My dead Dog Back..!!!!
3. Marryin a Man n Not a Dog *If u knw wat I mean* ;-)
4. Driving a Silver Mercedes..!!!
5. Killing F**K few people in my Hit List!!!
6. Taking My parents for a World-Tour..!!!
7. Gettin Full-Control Over my sadism n Anger...!! *rather eradicatin it completely 4m my personality*
8. Going To the Himalayas..!!!!
9. Meeting God...!!!!!
10. To have a daughter..!!!!

Nostalgia!!!

When I Look back to the life I had and compare it with 2day....I get a bunch of memories run down my Spin...!!! I look @ myself in d Mirror and feel * when I say Feel I mean d "Inner Self" and Not d way I look..lolzz* has changed sooo soo Much.... I always thought life was funny. You think you live day by day remembering things. Reminiscing in the past and hoping for a better future for ourselves. Yet the sweetest and best memories fade away. Like they never existed. You sit there trying to remember all the positive and great things in your life. And u Fail...[..]

........feelings of passing through old haunts only to find them changed -Is one of the worst things.

...I keep on comparin my old self with the New one I carry today and Feel Silent Tears Running Down My Cheeks......!!

PS:

Did dis blog make sense??? Bah..how does it matter anyway as long as www.blogger.com accepts it :-).

takecare all of U.

sept 13, 2007

Haaaaaaalollllloooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo Sexy Peoplllleee :-D

kemcho sab log??????

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o0ueuSIuDto

Ye Gaana suno, Mera tho dil le liya yaar ye gaana baap :-D :-D

Aur ek Hot ladke ne Bhi :-D :-D :-D Ye video ka Hero nahi yaar :-D Wo kisipe nazar padi aaj
:-D :-D

Chalo TC rakhne ka n Mast Life beetane ka *wink* bole tho ekdum Saaalid- solid :-)

baiiii :-*

sept 12, 2007

Woke up 2day morning at 8.05 [precisely]. Realized class is at 9:30. Had a minor panic attack, got over it and rushed to the bathroom, only to find it occupied By my Rascal brother!! He told me he was going to sing "Kabhi Alvida Naa Kehna" title track and 2 himesh reshammiya tracks before he comes out *&^&**%%$$ Cursed him vilely when found the duration. Ran through the hall cursing him still, and thankfully found a vacant bathroom. Had bath, ran, got dressed, ran again. Reached the dinning table huffing and puffing. Had two sandwiches arrghhh..... downed it with a glass of Milk. Burned my tongue in the process. Still cursing, ran for my university or had 2 visit Universi-TIES 2day..huh...??!!!!!!. Had a near heart attack when I saw the display on the digital clock. Found out later that the clock was malfunctioning. Cursed some more. Slept throughout the lectures, despite stretching and exerting every fibre of my being to stay awake. *YAwannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn*

Woke up with a bloody oversleep hangover.....:-D Then der was this Computer class *Hell Y do dey F put up des courses as if m gonna get my PHD degree aftr dis...Hell Hell Hell*

And m doin dis Noble Job in d class making Optimum utilization of the university PC :-D

I ammmm Lovinggggggggggggggg Itttt :-D :-D

PS:

After this F class m gonna Go 4 my phd Kaamdhaam :-* :-*

U ppl Go work hard..Lazy Idiots :-D. Lol

Bye-Bye.

sept 11, 2007

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG Omgggggggggggggggggggg Omgggggggggggggggggggg

:-O :-O

a dead lizard?!!!
I was confounded by the discovery of a dead lizard, not because there is a dead lizard, cause I'm sure every room out there has their fair share of dead lizards...but literaly What caused to its death :-O that too in my ROOM :-O :-O...ver d reasons----ME
:-O or my super clean room gave him a shock?? and he died due to a heartattachk???!!!!!?????? Man....m sad ya :-( I neva really wanted My room to be the reason of sum1's death :-((

THATZ MISERABLE :-( [Booooo Hooooooooooo Booooo]

The thing that baffles me, why did it die in a seemingly open space like my computer desk that's not entirely hidden, if I were a lizard, I would die an honorable death by hiding in my brother's closet cabinet :-D :-D . Its SUrely Wud have given me a complete Privacy!!!! Hmmmmmm.!!!!!!

So with a little bit of research and some clever deducting...I conclude..................


IT HAS BEEN MURDERED!!!! :-O :-O

OMG :-O

PS:

Whoz d Criminal????????? EEwwwweeeeeeeeeeeeeee Killer :- O OMG....

sept 10th, 2007

I am juss crazy craaaaaaazy about everythin related to Priyadarshan’s Bhool Bhulaiya, Yayy datz a Yet 2 be released movie!! Shiney Ahuja looks quite promising ;-) Hezz so so Gud Ppl :-) n yea even Vidya balan makes a gud pair!! Beautiful!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vL0Xj2ZiVds

I Jussssssssssssss Love dis song, the musiz, the Stars esp :-) ok lemme confess its Shiney Shiney Shiney Shiney SHiney And SHiney all d way!!!!!!!!!

PS:

If U hate shiney or dnt like d Video.....I DONT CARE

:-).

PSS:

Incase u like :-* the song kisi bhi music website mein dundlena mil jayega gaana.

Love U :-*

Baiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!!!!

Tring-Tring!!!

NOTE:

I decided 2 post this just 2 let u ppl know how close i am 2 my Friends and how much we love eachother....ye alag baat hai ki my Best frd can die for me n vice versa {we had even tried to proove it once :-) Yea..!! well datz a different story altogethr:)} But here m talking about sum1 who is as sweet as her frdship is.....XYZ Agarwal...[ dnt feel like disclosin names in public..hence] Read On....

Tringggggggggggg Tringggggggg Tringggggggggggggggggggg...Phewwwww!!!!!!

Me: Hulloooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo Hullooooooooooooooooooo

She: hulllo????? Abe behri hogayi hai kya??? tabse hullo-hullo bole jaarahi hai aage tho bol???

Me: *pause*...kaun ??? :-\\\ realized Areeeeeeeeee *exicted, happy, emotional with tears* tu kahanse????

She: Gadhi Code dekh fir baat kar..hehehhehe.

Me: * Shit realized again* kab aayi Jaan?????? Aur ghar kiu nahi aayi hai??? call kya kar rahi hai beete-beete?????

She: Yaar abhi aayi 2 ghante pehle, thoda saans tho lene de, kesi hai???

Me: kuch tik nahi hai....*Pause*....*silence*

She: aunty ki tabiyat...??

Me: Nah...bimar hai bohat...

[we Talked for an Hour....vese bhi we r always in touch..hmmm]

Me: ghar aana yaar...bore maat kar ab tu :-(

She: khana kya baana hai??

Me: abe tu aana sab baana hai teri pasand ka.....Tu aaja bas..

She: Shamko peene chalegi?????

me: hehehheehehe Haan chalenge, mein 3 peeyungi par :-D

She: haan haan bill bhi tuhi degi 8-

Me: gharpe bhi padi hai bottle aaja pehle wo khatam karle :-P

She: Acha Sun..??

Me: *disgusted* Abe pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee arrrrrghhh Tu Paaka maat ab ...

She: abe ghar 8-9 baaje tak aajaungi fir kal milenge.

Me: Haan yaar 1 km bhi nahi tera ghar mere gharse dur..bore maat kar ab. Aaaja Bas :-D

*droped d phone*

* She is here n has slept Now :-D* I feel very happy mentally n bas.....!!!

Flashback-----------------------------

Few years back when we were in 11 th class we had met in college, used 2 travell in one rikshaw as our houses r very near 2 eachother.....intially we never used 2 talk....Bye tak nahi karte the ek dusre ko....used 2 act like strangers :-D She had her own group of frds n Me 2....our sections ver also different...the only time we used 2 meet was ghar jaate waqt...Max wait karati thi mujhe chasmis khainki :-D [now she uses lenses..lolzz].........

during grads 1st year or so......i always saw her sitting alone...going 2 the canteen alone...havin a sad face...sitting alone in d scooty stand...stayin absent..etc...I even used 2 tell my other close frds....who never gave much importance 2 what i used 2 tell about her...*my frds r a bit weird..Not bad though..:-p* Once i reached college early...n saw her near d stand...i went n Sat beside her.....

Me: Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii :-D

She: *coldly* Hi deepsikha

Me: kya hua yaar, tere wo dost kahan hain?? wo do ladkiyan??? tere section ki???

She: * brusted into tears*......................................

Me: *silence*...........

Me: mujhe dost maanti hai??????

She: crying...haan re.....

Me: Fir Bol...

She: Told d entire story...Of how dat silly bitch backbitter had created the differences n how they had started behaving with her................by isolating her......ignoring....

Me: *cudnt believe that such rascals existed...though even i used 2 never like them.....*

Me: Aajse Tu meri dost hai Ok?????????????????????

She: *silent*........................

SLowly Slowly we became best of frds....within these years our frdship took a different turn...she was a part of My frd Circle Now......infact better than a few even..!! She gained her confidence back.......and never talked with dos 2 gals ever again....I taught her the ways 2 Ignore Them :-D *wink*.........................................Sometimes she used 2 tells us...that she really took DKY as her best frd....n I used 2 tell her....."abe Jinko teri 1% parva nahi...jinhone tujhe akele chod diya tha...itne insensitive Kutte types ke ladkiyan thi..tu aaj bhi dukhi horahi hai 4 them???"...............hmmm Well ab meri dost hai So....She is a very different human being nah *wink* may be datz Y...Till 2day she cudnt Hate Them......

Ps:

During the Farewell....Juniors asked her.."Didi which is ur most beautiful moment in college??"

She: When I met wid her...

*Pointed towards me*

Me: ........................ankh hi bhar aayi Yaaar......

I understood In her I had already Found A "FRIEND For LIFE"

PSS:

We Love Thumps Up, Wahi peene chalenge *wink*

God's Chosen One..!!!

Recently I was watchin a Telefilm which has left a very deep impact on my psyche, the story had a Young Boy who was tryin hard 2 understand d very existance of God n His powers!! He often visits a priest who is person sanctified for service to God and privileged to enter into his presence in the holy place, and to offer sacrifices. The priest keeps on tellin the Young boy n makin him understand that God exists...and all what happens 2 us is his Wish and the results of our deeds. Blah Blah Blah Blah.....For Whatever reasons the boy had started believin in God and eventually his life evolved around it..!! Now How..???

He started prayin God when he faced any hurdles be it with his exam papers, friends, his love or just a mere drawin competition....and the moment he failed in either of these things he started blamin God for all of the agony n behaved like an Atheist. One day his mom had a major accident and was critical............he ran n ran n ran towards d Church n called for the priest....

Boy: Y do u always lie Mr. Priest????? God never answers prayers....n u tellin people that God exists??? and Loves U??????? how cud u cheat innocent people like that...???

Priest: *smiled*....and heard the boy's agony's.....He simply asked the boy 2 pray even more deeply and Honestly.....God will surely answer....He even asked the Boy 2 think deeply about his Sins...and If committed then shud Confess infront of God.....Only then will his Pain reduce...!! That is How the World Works......!! He said We all can be God's choosen One...By loving him..By believin in Him and By havin a Heart which wud take U closer 2 him.....!!!!

Boy: Confessed and started cryin by rememberin an incident ver he had ridiculed a Friends Mother by thinkin her 2 be rude n bad....He remembered all his bigger n smaller sins which he had committed.....And Asked for forgiveness....!!!

His mom recovered gradually...But he cud never get back his love or frds...may be they ver Not "God's Chosen One" else they cud have forgiven the young Boy....even If they too had faults...Still....and hence the Story ended...with a scene ver------------

"The priest tells the Boy that happiness n sorrows r a part of our lifes but that doesnt mean god doesnt exist....we accept that Innocent people sometimes get tortured But may be because God knows they r more stronger...All this may sound Illogical and unscientific...But If U believe Only then u can Dream and Only then u can Fulfill.....U had a heart 2 confess n change urself...Hence U have already prooved that u r "God's chosen One".....who has a Heart blessed By Him.."

The telefilm ended....Which kept my mind wanderin about My sins...and If I am God's chosen one or was ever 1s even for a second..?? Even I had behaved like an atheist many a times....those ver my Sins...by doin all that I have Increased My sins....I got Scared....a sence of fear ran down My spin............I sat quietly on my chair n prayed God 2 forgive me for any minor-major sins I had committed....U people wont believe But somehow I had some Mental Peace....as If I am Not Guilty of anything anymore..!!

PS:

I Got d call from my professor Himself [who is a really stern one oops a sin again :-D] and surprisingly he has arranged my Form...* State of Utter Shock* U can call this a coincident or Just God's wish *wink*.

Then i remember--Tried hard 2 find out whether i had ever done anythin spectacular 2 be Felt as God's Chosen One..??? Yes........I had done a good deed :-)

By running few miles just 2 get a file of Crocin tablets for an Old maid who used 2 work in my neighbourhood when I was in school......Likewise Thoda bahut *embaressed* :) .

Every Small- SIngle good deed we do makes us God's Chosen One......All of Us are "God's chosen One".......See U have Just Finished reading this blog which again makes u "God's chosen one" :-D else Y u wud have read it one d first.....:-).......

I dunno....what had happened with me was good or bad...whatz going 2 happen...But m sure my heart wud feel nice thoda sa if I feel someday that I had done somethin which can or has made me take myself 2 be "God's chosen One"......

PSS:

keep committin Sins n then Confess :-D hehhhehehe.

Golden Rule *wink*.

August 30, 2007

Hell Busy.

...............

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TqjFPUrqykc

August 26, 2007

Well since my last post things went from bad to worse, i was losing pretty bad, i had even created a why me post that i ended up pulling as it was far too negative...Huh!! *sign*...My Life is so messed Up..damn..!! every Bit I feel confused, paranoid, digusted n Tired :-(...Life's a crazy Mess. *Yawnnnnnnnnn** My life's Critical issuses r pendin n m not even findin a small conclusion 2 it...:-( All which is leadin 2 Yet More n more of apprehensions n worries......*sob sob sob sob sob*......

have juss 1 reason 2 be happy as of now n dat is am gonna meet d professors on monday regardin my PHD work :-) thankfully I managed 2 fix a meetin wid them..!! So 2morrow errr...Its 26th already so 2day :-D m gonna study Hard n Hard..coz m gonna be interviewed by emm' :-S .....Hope things Click n I get 2 do my work Under them....3 years down d line If I get blessed enough 2 Complete my PHD work n alllllll....then Lifez gonna be a smooth sailin :-) wud b all set 2 teach d mgmt Fellassss wid watever bakwaas knowledge i wud be having..lolzz !! Poor Students....!! Bwahahhahahahahahahahahahahahhaha!!!!!! :-D. Pray I get recognized as Dr. Deepsikha Mishra Sumday!!! YAI YAI YAI :-D...lolz!!

PS:

Touchwood :-((...

PSS:

I Have a Passion For Teachin n m gonna get der @ ANy Cost....!!! * Prayin....**

Lv U all.... :-* :-*.

...............

My heart began to break,
The Day I started knowing U....
I should have seen it coming.
How could I have been so blind??

What I thought would just take time,
Will take an eternity....
The wall that surrounds you
Has become my sad reality....!!

And when it is all over...
And you walk away..
I Wud Cry and yet again realize my heart's breakin...
And all of my love will spill....!!

How sad that the moment.....
I realized That my heart was breaking
Was the very moment.......
I realized That I am in love with you !!!!

August 21st 2007

I HATE People who Lie OR are dishonest...Who Cheat or Play with Human emotions...I Just feel like killing them RAW..! I have broken Many Bonds which ver close 2 my heart knwing the fact that sumver der was Dishonesty n Lies.....!!! I m Insanely n eccentrically Possesive about things like Honesty n Truth...!! My Blood Boils @ d earliest otherwise n I becum a complete different Human...rather INHUMAN.

PS:

Once Neha {a preety close frd of mine] had lied 2 me for sumthin...I had Stopped talking 2 her for 6months.....later she realized. But She was NEVER Forgiven n wud never be...I HATE Complicated n Liers...JUST HATE HATE HATE.

Be Honest..!

August 19, 2007.

I heard few tracks on Channel V 2day..lemme blog it down :-)

Here's how it went-Song One-

'Mehbooba mehbooba ooooooooo' by Himesh in Aap ka Surooooor OMG. I'd never actually heard Himesh's version. I kinda flip the channel as soon as I see/hear him.It was jus this instance, when I wanted to know what the whole Asha-Himesh controversy was all about. DAMN. my mistake. Horrible horrible song. Thank god RD Burman died long time back. This was one good reason for suicide, seeing his song 'oooooh'ed away by the Huzoooorrr. Or maybe murder?

Song Two- 'Aa khushi se khud khushi kar le' from RGV's Darling (sic)Consider the irony. No actually, the timing was perfect. I wanted himesh to listen to this very song after song one. heheheheh.


Song Three- 'Naughty Naughty' from Cash ...Really, this was sheer torture. On a nice hip hop tune, the guys went 'Aey chori' or sumthin. (!!!) Please, what were u guys thinkin? zaara dandg dang dang...errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...Save Us..! Lolzzz.!

Song Four - Ek Glassy Do Glassy singer : BOMBAY BRONX , I kinda actually Like dis song...U heard d lyrics???? It goes like :

Ik glassy, doh glassy theen galssy char :-D , put ya hands in da air like u jus dun care, cuz u feel lika supastarik glassy , doh glassy theen glassy char ,ur drunk as hell , n u dunt feel well , but u still go bak 2 da bar...:-D Hillarious...! lolzzz

Punjabi Songs Rock anyday, anytime!! Cheersss!!!

I need water -Ek Glassy :-D

PS: I ABHOR DRINKING.

Gudnite.

August 18, 2007

All of a sudden,I'm very happy. I keep smiling throughout the day, singing to myself, enjoying every moment of my life.Reason? *Blushes* ..lolzzz! I dont need a reason to be happy. I'm happy because of everything around me. Because Ahem :wink: wink: because u meet a person so different from others...so So so purfecttttttttttttttttttt!!

6'2 Fair n handsome wid such a kind n strangely simple heart :-* Its rightly said....Never Cry If few ditch u or never compare..exceptionals exists..! n Trust me if U have a True heart...God wud Bless..!! Wait a Min :-O u think m gonna type my love story here???????????? Eh...??? Or u think a love story acctually exist??? :-D..Keep Guessin Readers :-* U gettin nothin here anyway :wink:

Dun get ne ideas after readin ..tis a Family Blog ok.. can b read peacefully wit da whole family..dirty mind.. *sinister luk* lolzzzzzz...!!!

Peace I said I liked...dnt get prepared 2 cum 2 my weddin..!! Sheesh..Phew..!!

God Bless My Heels :-D

Bye Bye Frens!

Aug 14th, 2007

I hate to think of my parents getting old; it doesn't seem right. I don't feel like an adult, so why do they have to get older? ...It reminds me of how one day my parents will be gone from this Earth. That really scares the hell out of me. I LOVE my parents so much and I can not imagine life with out them. I think as I get older I realize the days are getting shorter with them. I am not saying they are going to die anytime soon. I guess I am just trying to prepare myself for the inevitable. My mother will be 5* next year and my dad will be 5* this year. WOW! It seems like no time, that we all just keep getting older and older.......

I don’t know I guess I have been thinking about that a lot. I had a dream about a month ago that my mom died and it has really put this in the front of my mind. I suppose there is nothing I can do but just let them know I love them and appreciate them.

Does anyone else think about this or am I just some morbid weirdo?

My dad finds anything to strenuous a bit much..... ,my mum admitted what I already suspected that she has real memory problems, she constantly forgets things and repeats herself.....

Y do I have 2 Go away from them @ dis stage again??? Y God and the Society have created such $%^^^^%%% customs that u have 2 F**** go away 2 work or 2 build up ur family...bah....WAT a Joke...Family??????? what family?????? Only 2 people makes a god damn family????????? What about our parents????? Who will takecare of them..???

I will die....................I cant digest dis fact....Me have completely wasted my disgusting Time on idiots n bekar people who never even cared a pinch for me...showed trantrums on my parents...If ever I had I fight in school I used 2 come back home n show my mood swings on my mom.....Y she had 2 tolerate all dis??? Who will beat me up If i do somethin wrong years after?????? Who will scold me like my dad???

I just Wish 2 have a Very less Life-SPan....n I will make that happen....and b4 this I will always give my 100% tryin 2 stay atleast very near 2 my parents verever I stay.........

was seein an Old album 2day.....my parents ver so young in dos photos...I was so secured...So safe...2 people who love me n Loved me without any expectations..........

cant Type nemore.....I feel weak inside....I feel.......

gudnite.

PS: The windows of my next-door neighbour aunty who is nomore.....was closed 2day.....and may be it wont open Often as it used 2 be.........I need the mithayi man...Y all dis is happenin people...Y??

PSS:

I didnt mention my parents age coz i didnt feel like..thatz all.