Thursday, August 30, 2007
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
Sunday, August 26, 2007
August 26, 2007
have juss 1 reason 2 be happy as of now n dat is am gonna meet d professors on monday regardin my PHD work :-) thankfully I managed 2 fix a meetin wid them..!! So 2morrow errr...Its 26th already so 2day :-D m gonna study Hard n Hard..coz m gonna be interviewed by emm' :-S .....Hope things Click n I get 2 do my work Under them....3 years down d line If I get blessed enough 2 Complete my PHD work n alllllll....then Lifez gonna be a smooth sailin :-) wud b all set 2 teach d mgmt Fellassss wid watever bakwaas knowledge i wud be having..lolzz !! Poor Students....!! Bwahahhahahahahahahahahahahahhaha!!!!!! :-D. Pray I get recognized as Dr. Deepsikha Mishra Sumday!!! YAI YAI YAI :-D...lolz!!
PS:
Touchwood :-((...
PSS:
I Have a Passion For Teachin n m gonna get der @ ANy Cost....!!! * Prayin....**
Lv U all.... :-* :-*.
Friday, August 24, 2007
...............
The Day I started knowing U....
I should have seen it coming.
How could I have been so blind??
What I thought would just take time,
Will take an eternity....
The wall that surrounds you
Has become my sad reality....!!
And when it is all over...
And you walk away..
I Wud Cry and yet again realize my heart's breakin...
And all of my love will spill....!!
How sad that the moment.....
I realized That my heart was breaking
Was the very moment.......
I realized That I am in love with you !!!!
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
August 21st 2007
PS:
Once Neha {a preety close frd of mine] had lied 2 me for sumthin...I had Stopped talking 2 her for 6months.....later she realized. But She was NEVER Forgiven n wud never be...I HATE Complicated n Liers...JUST HATE HATE HATE.
Be Honest..!
Sunday, August 19, 2007
August 19, 2007.
Here's how it went-Song One-
'Mehbooba mehbooba ooooooooo' by Himesh in Aap ka Surooooor OMG. I'd never actually heard Himesh's version. I kinda flip the channel as soon as I see/hear him.It was jus this instance, when I wanted to know what the whole Asha-Himesh controversy was all about. DAMN. my mistake. Horrible horrible song. Thank god RD Burman died long time back. This was one good reason for suicide, seeing his song 'oooooh'ed away by the Huzoooorrr. Or maybe murder?
Song Two- 'Aa khushi se khud khushi kar le' from RGV's Darling (sic)Consider the irony. No actually, the timing was perfect. I wanted himesh to listen to this very song after song one. heheheheh.
Song Three- 'Naughty Naughty' from Cash ...Really, this was sheer torture. On a nice hip hop tune, the guys went 'Aey chori' or sumthin. (!!!) Please, what were u guys thinkin? zaara dandg dang dang...errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...Save Us..! Lolzzz.!
Song Four - Ek Glassy Do Glassy singer : BOMBAY BRONX , I kinda actually Like dis song...U heard d lyrics???? It goes like :
Ik glassy, doh glassy theen galssy char :-D , put ya hands in da air like u jus dun care, cuz u feel lika supastarik glassy , doh glassy theen glassy char ,ur drunk as hell , n u dunt feel well , but u still go bak 2 da bar...:-D Hillarious...! lolzzz
Punjabi Songs Rock anyday, anytime!! Cheersss!!!
I need water -Ek Glassy :-D
PS: I ABHOR DRINKING.
Gudnite.
Saturday, August 18, 2007
August 18, 2007
6'2 Fair n handsome wid such a kind n strangely simple heart :-* Its rightly said....Never Cry If few ditch u or never compare..exceptionals exists..! n Trust me if U have a True heart...God wud Bless..!! Wait a Min :-O u think m gonna type my love story here???????????? Eh...??? Or u think a love story acctually exist??? :-D..Keep Guessin Readers :-* U gettin nothin here anyway :wink:
Dun get ne ideas after readin ..tis a Family Blog ok.. can b read peacefully wit da whole family..dirty mind.. *sinister luk* lolzzzzzz...!!!
Peace I said I liked...dnt get prepared 2 cum 2 my weddin..!! Sheesh..Phew..!!
God Bless My Heels :-D
Bye Bye Frens!
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
Aug 14th, 2007
I don’t know I guess I have been thinking about that a lot. I had a dream about a month ago that my mom died and it has really put this in the front of my mind. I suppose there is nothing I can do but just let them know I love them and appreciate them.
Does anyone else think about this or am I just some morbid weirdo?
My dad finds anything to strenuous a bit much..... ,my mum admitted what I already suspected that she has real memory problems, she constantly forgets things and repeats herself.....
Y do I have 2 Go away from them @ dis stage again??? Y God and the Society have created such $%^^^^%%% customs that u have 2 F**** go away 2 work or 2 build up ur family...bah....WAT a Joke...Family??????? what family?????? Only 2 people makes a god damn family????????? What about our parents????? Who will takecare of them..???
I will die....................I cant digest dis fact....Me have completely wasted my disgusting Time on idiots n bekar people who never even cared a pinch for me...showed trantrums on my parents...If ever I had I fight in school I used 2 come back home n show my mood swings on my mom.....Y she had 2 tolerate all dis??? Who will beat me up If i do somethin wrong years after?????? Who will scold me like my dad???
I just Wish 2 have a Very less Life-SPan....n I will make that happen....and b4 this I will always give my 100% tryin 2 stay atleast very near 2 my parents verever I stay.........
was seein an Old album 2day.....my parents ver so young in dos photos...I was so secured...So safe...2 people who love me n Loved me without any expectations..........
cant Type nemore.....I feel weak inside....I feel.......
gudnite.
PS: The windows of my next-door neighbour aunty who is nomore.....was closed 2day.....and may be it wont open Often as it used 2 be.........I need the mithayi man...Y all dis is happenin people...Y??
PSS:
I didnt mention my parents age coz i didnt feel like..thatz all.
Saturday, August 11, 2007
....
I will Miss her....
I gave a Call 2 my grandmaa 2day.....dunno Y but i feel like meetin her badly...wanna hug her tight...!
Value every moment with ur loved 1s....U never knw der space wud be vacant 2morrow.
I have a splitting headache...??..
tc.
Friday, August 10, 2007
August 11, 2007.
Y cant we ever Hate them???? When they have never even cared 2 look around whether u actually alive or dead???
Y do u feel sad whenever u hear or see a sad movie n somehow relate 2 it????
Y do u shed dos silent tears???????
Y ur heart cries n yells n takes out all its pain silently???
Y do u forgive them so easily????
Y do u pray for them????
Y do we knowingly tell them harsh sentences...does it really gives us the satisfaction that we have hurted them in return..? SO we happy??? Do we really get happy??? or become more sorrowful that u have hurted whom U actually like...even if dey dnt..?
Y do we still feel we might get the broken-lost bonds back????
Y ???
I hate it when my mind creeps into such weird emotional Craps....But dnt u all think deep inside whether we tell it or not , show it or not...We all do think n wander about these unsolved..unanswered Qs..????
I have got few very bad experiences in life....If u ppl think i have always only had loyal, truthful n nice people around me...u r right :) Coz i still love n care for the people who have betrayed n hurted me too...coz whatever they r dey r my frds.....watever they did dey did it with me....and u have no right 2 call them bad..lolz! even if u all r my sweetheart Readers :-*
Vese Bhi....Wo dost ki kya..jo dusre ko maaf na kare, uske liye dua na kare....bhale hi wo dost Zindagi se jaa chuke ho.....Par dost tho the na.....lamhe tho hain na unke saath....arey mein tho budhi hone ke badh bhi mere doston ko nahi bhulungi.....bhale hi unko mujhe bhulaye jamana beet chukka ho......bhale hi mein unki kabhi dost thi hi nahi....shayad mujh mein hi kaami thi...Issmein Unka koi kasoor nahi.....!!
Takecare all of U.
Thursday, August 9, 2007
August 9th 2007
Lemme go for some Chai m here since morning 7..Poor Me :(
tata.
Note:
I will write a blog on EQ n EI and How EQ is required 2 be EI , How does being EI helps us in d day 2 day affairs n Why people shud have a gud combo of EQ n EI ultimately 2 avoid BQ..!! Many people who are book-smart but lack EQ end up working for people who have lower IQs than them but who excel in EQ skills. And as m plannin 2 do my PHD in managemnt later in life...so lemme give u a news "Its said dat aftr few years or as far as i feel it has already started i.e. The "new" intelligence is the heart-level engine that drives human capital and bein a human resource mgmt student myself i second dis fact 101%. bah...we will get into all dis later..!!
Wowwwwwwwwww My brain cells r active now :-D lemme Rush..!! hooossssssssh!
Wednesday, August 8, 2007
August 8, 2007.
There are many scenarios we wish not to happen , Even I had never imagined that the incident wud change my life.... which changed my character in a lot of ways, and left a very deep impact on my psyche....der r many such instances which has helped me evolve n be more strong but lets not get into dos now...n stick 2 d topic.
The day was bad that day.....When she told me that she had never considered me as her friend or worth being her friend as always just had a sympathy coz i was weak in academics n she was toppin in the class.... I had cried a lot that day...as if my heart was weepin..
"The flash back.."
She was one of my bestest frds in school, we used 2 share everythin startin from our lunches to just anythin which 2 school gals wud get involved in discussin! She had taken a place which 2 some extent was near 2 what sonila was havin in my heart...I was a bit weak in studies as compared 2 her...durin my school days i was never a bright student n hence she always used to help me with my studies too...She was more clever n smarter than me during those days....I was always by her side every time she needed me..we had few other close frds too like anu...Anu was a better student than me even so Anu and Nihar always used 2 be a bit more agressive when the issuse of exams, marks or anythin as such arised...anu somehow slowly made me feel that m in no way in their group n was der coz of Nihar....coz she wanted me 2 be der...Still I always ignored such instances which slowly was hurtin my ego silently.....I was Not what I am 2day then...i was very differnt..was a more friendly, naive, and actually was what one shudnt have been in this cruel world of so-called frds who betray u like never b4...
Slowly der was a huge gap between us dunno 4 what n why....her calls reduced n she started behavin as if she was some Queen n she didnt bother about what the ppl below her in anyway were n Felt....she had vene started givin sarcastical comments on d slightest provocation...
The first day of 10th Board came....We all met in the center...she was standin with Anu and didnt even bother 2 look at me 1s even...wereas I was almost about 2 run near her by seein her after 2 months of study-leave...She walked away....
i had few other classmates who were with me like Simi...who always used 2 tell me that i unnessarily love people who dont care 4 me...may be she was right....or may be i was immature that i cudnt understand at that time...
During the entire exams schedule each day...we meet..she didnt talk 2 me..just waved a hello from a distance..as if "If i go near her she will 4get what she had read" hehehhehe.....Some people I tell U are real &%$%&^...neway...we were in the same class were we had our seats...:)
My pyshe had already started changin may be durin that phase itself....Exams Got over...results were Out...I had safely secured a 76% thou she had some 84% and anu some 82 or so....
Last I had seen her when i had been 2 get my result...I asked her Why she had behaved in such a way durin the exams when i needed her the most...???? we had a heated argument n all she said was " blah blah.." [written above already..] Now that i had got d desired mark away above what was expected from me she was happy....[ Wow.., as if i needed her certificate to feel happy..]. I walked away.......
Since then due to God's Grace i had such good frds in my life like Leena..riyanka n all..That der was No lookin back since then....I got double amount of Love, care n everythin which i had lost der...The same trust came back in twice...! I understood five fingers r not same...n Not people even.......!! My nature...personality n behaviour changed magnificently...n for the BEST...!!
I Thank Nihar-anu...for making me be the person m now..and thanx that they went away from my life...The School Life had ended and with it a Complete Phase....!!
Do you then continue being in a farce of a friendship, knowing that everything you’ve shared together is now a heap of yesterday’s memories, tainted with her betrayal?
Thatz Why...I didnt wish her when i saw her few days back.........Though I still had the same happiness in my heart...by seein her after so many years...wish i wud have run n hugged her...!
Note:
Sonila was with me till class 5th..aftr that as far as school n colleges r concerned we never read togethr, So she was der all along n is still der....so i didnt mention her..again..!
Note:
i meet my next set of frds aftr 10th when i joined college.
Note:
from common frds I was always gettin d news of nihar ofcourse...she cudnt succeed the way she wanted 2...and Anu is not der in her life anymore too...Lolzz Funny..!!!
Tuesday, August 7, 2007
Aug 7, 2007.



Lately the songs from dis new yet 2 b released movie has really impressed me, with singers like KK and Shreya Ghosal it just takes me 2 some other dream world when i listen 2 emm' :wink: [ i listen 2 dos songs almost 10-15times a day by constantly repeatin it..lol] Mahesh Bhatts movies n story types r a Hit since long n m eagerly waitin 4 it 2 be released, no doubts it sure must be a very Intense and humane, , intensely thoughtful, sensitive and felt story..!!!! Very like me :wink: :-)
Sunday, August 5, 2007
August 5th, 2007.

I rarely pick up the phone - especially if I am not expecting a phone call or m sleeping or if am bzee or if the battery is down {due to sheer laziness i seldom charge my phone :-D or If its on silent} My friends have screamed, shouted, have banged der head in utter frustration, have warned me via sharp knives almost, lolzz But nothin has helped me change this stupid habit of Mine...!! everytime i find 10-15 missed calls n msgs with contents like " "Abe tu zindagi hai tho Y d *^%$&$*%*& u dnt pick u the cell my dear Y Y Y Y" :-D" and "plz meri Maa utta le uss phone ko uttale " :-\\ hehehehhe.
{ I love my good old' frddss!! sooo Much :-*}
So asusal as i heard my cell phone ring continuosly i ran 2 pick it up b4 the call ends...n sadly d call ended n I saw almost 6 missed calls already :-D lolzzz....Well she was my gud old' Budhi Khusat Moti CHildhood and besto frd Sonila...and for the Fun of U readers and just coz i want 2 remember such sweet conversations so leeme just blog down some of it :-D on the occasion of frdship day 2 dat :)
She: Maar gayi thi Kya :|
Me : Hiiiiiiiiii, baby kesi hai moti :p
she: Tune cell uttane ki kripa ki isliye zinda hun else aaj mein maarhi jaati ghusse se 8-|
me: SHut Up, errrrrrr...!!! aur bata!!
She: Tune mujhe 2 week se ek bhi call nahi kiya hai :(( yahan koi hai jo bimar pad jaate hain soch-soch ke ki ye ladki call kiu nahi kar rahi hai?? Is she angry?? IS she mad ??? is she Grrrrrr??? Par tujhe kya padi hai...U tho have so many other frds too..Blah Blah Blah Blah....
me: Pulllezzz :yawwn: meri maa wait n listen 2 me.
She: blah blah blah blah...!!!!!!
me: " Sign" , Huh, Phew......Help...Lolzzzzzzz!!
she: Bye...
me: Abe Ruk..chudel..shut up n listen.
she : {Listened to me 4 a change...ahhh How much i hate her angry voice n its peaceful when she is quite } lolzz!!
Me: ab samjhi.....Now u still angry?
she:{Paused...} Nah...Acha sun..
[Then we talked for almost 1hour 30mins or more than that..then b4 droppin]
she: ok sweetypie chal fir...'sign'
me: Okies haan mein tujhe monday call karti hun tik
[ me so Innocently said that..OMG...unaware of the consequences...poor me..Shit]
she: WHAT???? WHAT-DO-U-MEAN??? WHAT-THE-HELL???? tommorow is friendship day If u remember atalllll and u want me or u or watveer for us 2 talk on monday???????? Do-u-even-CARE??????Blah blah blah blah blah......
Me: SHIT..."a guilty laugh" hehehehehehe SHit....Sad :(( are yaar...is that what matters??? haan??? a day????? Its for people like U and Me that frdship days r celebrated jaan..frdshipday exist coz of us..coz of bonds like Ours..." warna aesi days ki aukad hi kya..?????? Blah Blah.
She: "Laughs"..Abe khun ki pyaasi dayaan :| I know, I knew..mein tho teri le rahi thi :p..and dear..Teri jesi dost ho tho life mein har din is Friendship day :((....monday kya sunday kya....
[I tell u all she is very unpredictable...dekho dekho kese emotional baan rahi hai aunty :p lolzzzz]
Me: {"naturally bachi emotional hojayegi na.."} so got emotional..
She: ok fir rakh lun kangal hogayi.
me: Ok fir monday shit oops kal call karti hun :-D lolzzzzzzzz
She: Hatt be {in the most insulting manner..}
A very happy frdship day 2 u all out their too....Its a lovely relationship...love,respect n maintain the bonds of dosti which u have, about me...i feel m already blessed as far as my frds r concerned...!! :)
Gudnite!!
Note:
haveta make calls 2morrow..shit agar mein peeda nahi hui hoti tho kaun bardash karta inn sabko :( bhagwan bhala kare mera :p lol.
"Walked, slipped, got up to walk again…Small feet discovered world through tiny steps
Thursday, August 2, 2007
Being Nostalgic!! Part 1
Here I have tried To explain, have tried to show y’all what nostalgia is to me, what it does to me, but I can’t do it. I might be able to if I sit down and write for long enough. I might be able to show you that it’s one of the only things that I really fear…Nostalgia is a tricky beast!It is often the rose tinted glasses through which we view events of the past,but sometimes is the genuine wistful longing we feel when thinking of people and times that are no more. These memories that are tied into past feelings of love and i think that many people revisit them from time to time,losing themselves in their reverie!!!........
We sense the lack. We sense the impossibility of retrieving the lost time. We feel regret. We feel pain. However, it is not easy to point out what exactly pains us in our nostalgic moment.
As m in a mood of nostalgia Now lemme take a trip down memory lane and let my readers now what all makes me nostalgic..!! Sooooooo here It goes in Hinglish 4 a change ;)
- Mujhe Wo din yaad aate hain jab mein school ke bus se uttarke bhagi-bhagi aati thi ghar mummy se jhadu ki jhappi lene ;) and agar mujhe pehle se pata hota tha ki aaj kuch acha khana mummy ne rakha hoga something spl..tho aur bhi tez bhagti thi ;) wo bachpan, wo choti-choti cheezon se max khushi paana.
- Wo neeche padosi ke bacho ke saath Bird-bird khelna :p pata nahi shayad hum birds baanke uddne ki acting kiya karte the…ajeeb tha par ussmein bhi kitna maaza tha!
- Mummy ka dantna….phir khudhi aakar manana, wo haasana, wo har pal usska aapke saath rehna, aapka haath pakad ke road-cross karna….
- Papa ka roz ghar aate waqt ke choti si chocolate lana…aur jab wo bhul jaaye tho mera aapne tantrums dikhana :p…fir unka mujhe samjhana….
- Kahin ghumne jaane ki Khushi, wo exictment.
- Kuch Gum…
- Wo bhai ka pyaar, usske saath beetaya har lamha…
- Wo ghanto mummy ke saath terrace pe beetkar gaapee maarna.
- Wo Pyaar Wo dulaar……
- Wo college mein scooty stand pe ghanto beetkar baatein karna, and pata nahi kitne pal beete hain mere "lifelong doston ke saath!"
- Wo Leena se har baat pe jhagda karna n fir 6-7 din bina baat kare rehna…wo vidhisha ka aapne motape ko lekar chintit rehna, saath tution jaana aur wahan bilkul na padhna…wo sab kuch jo aaj nahi hai..agar kuch hai tho hamari umarbhar ki dosti..!! Leena, Vidhisha, riyanka , Susmita…….mere grads ke vo har din vo har lamhe Wo pure 5 saal……yunhi palak jhapakte unka beet jana…
- Sonila ke saath 18years se dosti Nibhana…..YES hamari dosti ko 18years ho gaye hain….hum 5 saal ki Umar se nautanki kar rahe hain :p…..uska 5 saal mein bhi mere liye jhula khali chod dena…..mujhe aapna chips ka packet de-dena…mujhe kisi karan roota dekh..mere pass aakar mujhse khelne ki koshish karna :p….
- Wo shilpa ki baak-baak…baat-baat pe call karke kehna “Aati hai kya” lolzzz! Aaj 8 years badh bhi aapne sasural se call karke poochna “abe teri Himat kese hui mujhe bhul jaane ki 3 week hue :p “ Wo aapnapan…wo haqh!!
- Wo Mera Pehla Pyaar……..!! Wo Sache Lamhe..!
- Wo kuch Insaan jo kuch pal ke liye aapke zindagi mein aakar bhi unka kitna kuch kar jaana , aapka saath dena..and ye dawa karna ki ye sirf shuruat hai aur dosti dur talak jaayegi …{Itne Hain ki naam likhungi tho page bhar jayega}….Jese Nidhu, Sachin aka Sosy, Nitesh ,Simi, Manish ,Ravi, Abhishek, Karan, Anisha, Avneesh, Ashi, Jagdish, Toshu, Sameer, rajat,…and many more..!
- Wo Ped pe beete gilhari ko dekhna…chupchap dopahar mein wo chidiyon ka gaana, wo bachon ka har nukard pe Cricket khelna.
- Wo raat ko beetkar Blogs likhna… :-)
As days pass By each day becomes a memory of yesterday gone, I wish to be back to that time when I could simply enjoy life and feel carefree., However, nostalgia seems to come at a price: it pains to know that these are only memories.….U cant write everythin in a single Blog..So lemme keep something for the Next :)
Stay tuned..!
To be Concluded ;)
